SUBJECT LINE: Trying to weather the Storm . . .
Boy was last week tough : (
Firstly, I need to apologize about the late email. Fortunately for me though, I tend to write them a day or so in advance.
But even so… when something as monumental as death visits, it’ll knock you clean off your feet and any planning or preparation flies out the window.
In my diary, last Wednesday was supposed to be like every other day… writing, client calls and creativity flowing like a raging river. But by the end of that day, it was like none I’d ever experienced before nor would I want to experience again.
Now I wouldn’t ever say I have ever had a problem with “Adulting.” In fact, I really don’t even like that word.
But being an adult last week sucked.
You see, my 18 year old cat Storm, had been through a few health scares over the last 6 months, and last Tuesday night was her last.
Somehow we made it through the night and Wednesday morning presented me with the toughest decision I have ever had to make… to call the vet and end Storms life.
My friend Lorrie told me about how her vet made a house call when it was her cats time to go… so I rang our vet and asked if they did house calls.
It probably goes without saying that I didn’t make it too far into the conversation before I was a sobbing mess.
We organized the appointment, then I organized the pet funeral director to come and collect her and then we just sat and waited for the gruesome events of the day to unfold.
I have to tell you, it really sucks that the “Right Thing” feels so wrong.
The day went by without a hitch.
By the afternoon, I was left sitting shocked and stunned with a terrible sense of “What Now?”
It reminded me of when I was a kid at the beach…
Swimming happily in the surf, minding my own business when suddenly a rogue wave came and tossed me around and spat me out onto the hard, unforgiving sand.
Of course in the back of my head I knew the day would eventually come… but in the front of my head, I was holding onto hope with a white-knuckle death grip.
Which leads me to this week’s nugget.
Now, you may think I’m Captain Obvious for this but…
Knowledge Nugget #59 – Life Happens Whether You’re Ready or Not!
You see, even when things are painfully obvious… we still have ways of blocking them out or making them less than they are.
My common sense tells me that life is terminal.
My nursing background has had me look directly into the eyes of death many times.
My friends and loved ones have given me a taste of the personal side of death.
But none of it prepared me for any of this.
I thought I was prepared… but I wasn’t.
So what does any of this have to do with you?
Well, there are several lessons if you choose to see them.
When I was in the Army, as an Officer and Strategist, it was unacceptable to only have a Plan A.
So, I always had a Plan B… and a Plan C… and a Plan D!
(My Bosses even called me “Justin”… Just In Case!)
But for this, one of the most difficult and important events of my life… I had no plan.
Somewhere along the way, I lost my priorities and it bit me on the butt!
I think I had become addicted to “Hopium” …wanting to have a happy ending.
You know the one, the happy ending where death comes knocking in the middle of the night and Storm drifts off into her forever sleep all by herself.
But it didn’t happen and life isn’t always like that.
Sometimes we have to make the tough calls.
Sometimes we need to be the adult.
Sometime we need to do what others can’t do for themselves.
My heartfelt advice to you is… if you’ve been putting off or delaying anything… face it front on and make a plan.
You can change your plans or tweak them as you need to… but just have something in place for when life dumps you hard on the sand and knocks the wind out of you.
Until next week… be safe, take care and be prepared : )
P.S. Sorry for the heavy tone of this email. I guess I could have written about something lighter and happier… but I prefer to keep these emails real. Besides, I don’t want people caught out the way I was.
P.P.S. This week has been chock-a-block full of lessons. Specifically, it has really shown me who my true friends are. It has made me more discerning with who I surround myself with. Because, as we all know… we are who we hang around and I only want to hang out with people who stand with me.
P.P.P.S. Here is one of my favorite photos of Storm from a few years ago. I love how the light from a decal on my office window danced across Storm’s face and whiskers <3